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Hi,

Sometimes it is hard to say Good Bye. But the christmas is Off- five days since the first night. It doesn’t feel that different though.

But it is starting to feel a lot of different these days. Many wishes to everybody out there for the days that you had. Congratulations to you all who did receive a visit from SANTA and just ok for anybody else who did not get a visit. IT HAPPENS!. Well i wanted to see him, but had to go to office for work. I can’t say that i miss him. Anyways i had sent him a huge list of countries and children to visit on christmas night( If he servived that! well hurrah! and three cheers.)

I would love to know what did anyone of you got on your christmas.

Anyways, the day is out, and i certainly know one thing! SANTA needs some help.
2 Billion Children out there(includes some adults who love to meet santa). Now he has to be having some star trek powers to do all the stuff. But since he is a man jus like you and me. I must say He Needs help.

I plan to start from today only. Lets see. I think we can devide the world in some regions for different envoys of santa. NO! i don’t mean devide! i mean- associates to SANTA. Hows That!!!

Since in america he is permitted to fly, without permit. No problems there. Europe, russia, its done too. In South America, well flying will not help he needs to penetrate the forests, so santa with ground sledge is required with tarzen skills. In africa, a santa who can work full time round the year and may be take a break on christmas, is required, and he especially needs to be teacher or a doctor. Still searching.

India, flying is easy but getting past minds is not easy so a friend of mine could be contracted to help. I can’t disclose his name right now. He is still busy in his diwali work, is still considering the proposel.

While for eastern Asia, i do have found a great match. SUKO! she is great flier. I did had met her once, And she is in demand. I am telling you, she is in demand. And children are great about here, they love her like say- heavens!

See guys! whatever you think! We do need lots of santa’s here. There are a lot of children who want wishes to come true which are far different then barbies and mickey mouse, something like- books, food, medics, happiness, smiles and so on. Christmas is about 1year minus 5 days and a couple of hours away and there is lots of work. Whole lot of work is needs to be done.

As far as i am concerned. I just lost my phone, I don’t know if santa took it (as a present to me) or i dropped it into sea, but it does has cheared me a lot.( i can justify not calling some girls for a long time.)

Have a sparkling year ahead! And yes i do need to know if anyone of you can give me the dimensions of santa. Comments loved and invited.

….Apurva

Hi,

Well it was great, to give the best run that could come out of me, that day.
It has been 7 days since those moments. It feels different after the time. Well it took me 2 days to get back physically. Though the return from there took a huge toll. The temp difference of 20 deg c is more then i could take, i fell sick. It was nothing. But now, i am back full, only physically. The run as expected, has chit me as expected.

I love those moments. i have had 3 days of duty, since then. My supervisor, been called in day time for ISO certf. work is on computers only in day time. I was the new charge of the team.

I feel lonely, After the run, i am feeling more lonely. Actually, i also went there in a faith, may be my old girl may reconsider me. But she is no where around.

The dream is out. New is in. SANTA. I am thinking of preparing a list of wishes for this christmas. I am preparing a wish list to ask from santa.

I need not ask for a small, micky mouse. But i am going to ask him to come to me, have a seat by my side, let me rest, for a moment or so, in his laps.
We always think to have a father who will be there to help us in depression, when we are down. I have always asked santa to help me out.

This year i pray for something more. Instead of asking him to give me a hug. I am planning to give a hug to life. Asking is good. But always! come on. I have found myself asking for a friend every year. God says, if you have to ask for something every year by year, again-n-again. Then you are on the wrong street. Its called begging for the illusion to happen. Trying to live in deza woo.

I want a real world for me. And it is there in open. Santa! please help me to be strong. and know that i am a good man. And i can still make my self up.

Dear Friends,

I finished the marathon, thought only 20 kms today. I felt a little hard at the end of the race, i was feeling weak, though no pain, no feelings no gut feelings, just could not pick my legs up to make it in time. Now after a few hours, i just think ” what if santa was there behind my back or my front and encouraged me to walk. There were man in uniform encouraging me, old women and men too. But i think what i had in mind was santa.

Santa gives so many presents to so many children so many happy minutes to so many people all the time. I needed a little feeling of happiness at that time. i wanted to be one who gets a push from santa” hey Boy! you gonna start up now, i am getttin late”.
I would have broken the world records for that voice.
I know i have missed this feeling all my time. I give things my best, somewhere i back off. I don’t really know how the feeling is when someone you love is backing you up. i have tried so many times but i just don’t get it.

Made up a whole large family of unknowns, of men, women, ghosts, angels, books and Gods. But one man, always just misses me - SANTA.

Now the race is over. I will be moving out to my machines within a day or two. But the time that i have trying to run, trying to speak up with my old friends, words i have with the kenyan elite, and time i spent thinking about santa will las for long.
………………..Apurva

Hi,

Christmas is now one more day closer, I won’t say that it is far away but the cake really is some days away.

What was i thinking, i just decided, packed up, and moved to pune. Decided i wanted to run and here i am.
30 hrs, that’s the time i have been travelling to get here. travelling without a break, without food breaks with 4 bus changeovers. Was it exhausting. Yeah! that it was.

It is going to be a 42 km run again. But this time i am here without practice. Though this is one time when i am coming directly from the countryside after working on the site. It was my night shift, when i decided i will be running this time too. I came back, decided to leave within 2 hours, fell back to sleep, woke up in eve packed as if i am leaving for a beach trip, fell down the bus i was going to board, got ankle hurt, but left. and finally i have reached to the place. Day after tomorrow, the marathon is there. I am excited.
I spent, 36 hrs travelling, thinking what i like more. I loved pune more then anything a city where all my friends were. Today i am here back again. And the only person, i can find around is-me. The only thing that i find myself doing is back siting on PC-writing.

I was feeling i was not that much of happy living alone at the port. But now as i am away from there. I can find myself missing my boss, my collegues, those times, those cranes, and the grease.

I belong to my city of Mavricks. Some man realize the their lands far late. Plan to not to be late this time. Once the race is over, i will be returning back. This time. I won’t be calling back but plan to call ahead.

I miss my team. I miss the sea. i miss em’ all. Even the girls and the kids.

Hi,

Just ask what you want. And life will give you the same.
I had forgotten the mantra. Spent so many days thinking, suffering, feeling.

Yesterday, since i wrote about santa, after the thoughts of good hit my mind. I had already started feeling good. I returned back. Without any regrets, thinking about only the upcoming christmas and SANTA.

A good sleep. And then the night begin. And after so many days, hari gave me what i needed. An assignment. Assignment, without anybody guiding me or telling me what to do. A technician, the job sheets, the grease, the crane and the fabulous night.

I started work at around 1900 hrs. and i was there up working till 0730 hrs. I am happy. Today onwards i am on leave i won’t be there in office till, say one and half weeks.
But i was there working whole night, geaseing hidden points. Cleaning old grease, smelling the wind, smellig the sticky EP2. Working under the chilly winds is my favourite after sport. I was doing OK, it was my first mechanical assignment, i am a lot happier then a last few months, i am doing better. Really you have to ask with full heart what you want, beleive in it and be happier. It really brings blessings and good feelings, everything else, i think, follows.

Just fell down and got a bit hurt, while trying to push start the bus. 5 were already pushing. And i went there, and tried to force with full strength. And i think the bus had already started before i could touch the metal. I did touch the metal, but that was of ground. Its paining a bit. But i am a little embarrased. But its OK. I have a special gift, i am told by god on the spot, Don’t act stupid. Act simple.
Want to say, thank you santa.

Will be travelling nearly 2 complete days. Meet you guys little late.
…Apurva

Hi,

My day yesterday was not at all good. That is a bad news. It just keeps on happening to me. You will say what a buzzy man! I was thinking the same about myself yesterday.

Then, i read a blog here. It reminded me- just what i forgot. One only thing why i started blogging. Thanks giving & Christmas & a really beautiful man, His name is santa.

Good morning! I am sorry if my words are not much of enthusiatic, but i have just came back after an 12 hours duty and have to go back today night if i would leave the thought of being tired, which i can not, i am feeling sleepy too.

Santa Clause! I love him. Too many childern do, I am about some 20years older then them. But i do love santa. My parents don’t object, they don’t know about it, they live far away.

Why did i actually started this blog, money, yeah!. Only money! somebody more.
Colin, asked me to be positive. I was depressed after the recession. I was feeling odd, because of the market crunch. He was feeling it too, but there was something more, he was also happy, his grand children will be coming from johensburg to spend the christmas leave with him.

I love being a kid, i always love being a child, amist of being a grown up. The red dress of santa, feels like i am living in heaven. Just the thought of him, revives me up.
The fat, old guy from north pole.

Do you think- he is fat? i think there is a factory of toys inside his tummy, that could be the reason why noone ever found his place, there all of those beautiful toys are made. And once a dispatch is ready, his man ring a bell. and then he opens his coat and takes them out. Just like the golden goose!

These times are very hard times. But it is also christmas. I remember reading, its only when the man is in his greatest of troubles, people show real faith. It is when the boys & the girls go out on a snowy day, and love each other. Then Santa wakes up and that is what also drives his factory. And then he starts making his toys and then gives them to all.

These are preety hard times, aren’t they!!! I think this time santa is going to come.
I would love to have him around and keeping a photograph of him with me as a present.
………….With love and christmas
Apurva