lovemyday

Hi,

Its my first off after first roaster.
Good news from around. UNAMID peacekeepers are still there, even though fighting has started. Its odd, BBC is no longer covering it, so my information level has reduced a bit.
But i do know, this time it will be better and people will be somewhat safer.

My country is due for elections, so somebody is again going to get represent something that nobody out there knows about. But it will happen anyways. The only thing that it will help the country is: the huge spending that will be on during this time, it may help up the expenditure level of the country, improving the figures. It means we don’t need a war like gaza to boost our economy. It will be done with lesser bloodshed.
The worm causing the catastrophe in liberia has been identified. So the storm can now be controlled properly. The power deal in zimbabwae is now official: start the work people!..you have got a lot to do.
Obama has have had really too many setbacks this weak- its ok! it happens all the time, anytime better then yesterday.

Hari’s wife got sick. Extremely sick. I think she will have to move to hari’s paternal home. This is one thing that is over here with us guys, if anyone get’s in trouble, he has to call on back home for help. God knows what will happen to me when such thing comes to me.
Anyways, so he was on leave. And! well that meant i was incharge for the whole roaster. I don’t how you feel but running a terminal team is easier then running an govt or a family. For one thing everyone you are guiding is highly experienced they already know everything. So you only have to do paperwork and scheduling, guide small workshop teams and act fresh whole night. for three days, i was a bit disappointed by myself. Last day, i decided to go out and do the work, nothing, i went out with the fabrication team and sent the helper with the engineer and there i was helping out, when my time over there ran out, i found some more cleaning work for me. And it went out good too, It- in short meant, i had a bit of warm up with heavy duty equipment and lifting belts and ladders. It went good.

The shift went ok. Everything has gone ok till now. No calls from mahesh. I am relived & i have had a bad lunch. I ate something kind of onion vegi. just gulped it over with water and buttermilk.

….Only one thing odd- tomorrow is sunday, it means i won’t be able to write tomorrow. No net. But i think i will survive.
……..Apurva

Hi,

First the best news: UNAMID stationed at mujahiri have decided to stay back amid certainity of heavy fighting. The moment i had read the news of them being asked out. Only thing that i could imagine was the repeat of Uganda 1994. I can do nothing more and i did it best- prayed to god. For me sitting here- the clashes have no direct impact. Yet i find it difficult to accept the victory of oil over blood.

Then the bad news: For consecutively two days, i was the shift incharge of the mech team, i did it good from my point of work, but both the times i have been deep eyed by my assistant manager for improper and incomplete paper work. Yeah, i can say- it’s an experience. ok! But i do know, today, hari will be back from training and today he has been scolded for the improper training that he has given to me.

Two things scare me the most :he will be angry a lot. And i know that there is a whole lot of paper work pending, which his senior has been pushing for me to take up.
It could mean that i will be working on a computer for the rest of my two night shifts and may be more.(I pray there emerges out some fabrication work, i would prefer that over the computer screen)

OK, so what is it that i did for the two days i was incharge????
It was something that everybody on my team was regretting and my AM rejoicing. CLEANING.

CLEANING: IS A COMPULSORY ACTIVITY WHICH IF HAS NOT BEEN DONE SINCE ETERNITY MAKES THE YARD CLEAN AND THE CLEANERS DIRTY.

But that is what my team did. I did it to. I don’t exactly know whome of us liked or disliked it.( i don’t store such feelings in my memory).
The highlights:
My brand new fork lift: 3T ACE. was used to its full for both the days, and as i have said it is beautiful and with its fork at a height of 3 meters. It looks cute.(I know the kalmar fork lifts-40 tones are also great- but short ladies have their own charm, that too if they are yellow bodied with black front and a nice double slide mechanism).
We lifted and arranged nearly everything that was in sight. and found several things which were not in sight arranged them all too.

I think this was good, for the cleaning that we have done, i am ready for any kind of scolding from anyone. I am ready to take any words from my collegues.
Several are wooing the work that i have done “Waste”. But i know this is one thing that will be boosting a lot in performance- guys don’t understand the basics of work they are senior to me, but i have found that they only tend to do their work and ask for salaries and promotions and stuff around that.

I am happy, now several things are more arranged and accessble. Whereever i have left i know it may not proceed ahead and my improper paperwork will be adding to bad words about my workstyle. I could not garnish the time to see what actually my men had accomplished. Due to the corrections in paper work i was doing or will be doing tonight, but when i get free from it, i would seriously take a look at it. and will surely let you know.

With Regards,
Apurva

Well change is in the air. The times are getting tougher for for everybody. I too am starting to feel the heat. You know being a small technician and trying to understand the real thing around is a difficult. It is just like looking at moon with eyes and with a telescope. I though know and read and write about the financial conditions, now understand that what i feel and have understood is like: looking at moon with naked eyes. Need of a telescope has being felt.

I just had a chance to listen to “a big guy around”, yesterday, mixing it up with the data i already have- this is the conclusion i drew:

the world is bigger then i have known.
What am i doing for this world till now is very small.
There are men who do things which i don’t even know of.
There are things in this world which happen/ are done- and i don’t even have slightest idea of them.
I mean why anyways are some guys paid a 100 times more money then me. I mean i don’t feel my income is less, but there is something very importent role that these guys play in this world and i am not doing it. I need to do them.

Anyways: highlights of the time.
I got to see a beautiful hydraulic block assembled it was having some really beautiful flow control valves and pressure relief valves fitted: these things are precious. Also it had a small, only 1 cm long- check valve it was about 7mm in diameter. Salute to those who make such valve.

Day before yesterday, somebody parked a JCB machine in the parking lot,i went there to feel it ” it was awsome”, ” it was beautiful”. Yesterday, it was not there. I felt lonely.

I am starting to loose too many things now a days, its a good thing, a bood said, now i am learning, it means i am alive. Children are a good thing.

I just went through a page i had written way back it titled” suko teaches Adolf to paint”
It raised a nice smile on my face.

I got a challenge from a collegue” reduce your tummy flat -time limit. I have still not responded.

During visit yesterday, my head of services caught an eye to a spreader, it was looking good from outside, but was not clean from inside, he was not happy with me, coz may be he thinks i am the clean man.
But it was a boost to my clean up mission. Too many seniors object to my mission to clean up all the equipments and there accessable parts. I try to convince them it will help reduce maintainence and break down repair time, they consider it over work and unnecessary. I do atleast know that the work i do is importent.

That is it for today, i want to write more and more, but i can go on.

Apurva

Hi,

It was yesterday about 2010 hrs. i has already spent last 15 mins, and still the smell of RD 45 was not leaving me. I could gaze in mirror towards a black nose painted with RD 45. I was tired, it was like i had just finished a marathon and when i returned back
“Apurva! we are out of eggs, can you get it from the mart please”

Anyways the operators had been glued with their seats, i think, it took them about 15 more minutes to get them releaved. I was still thinking about the noise from RTG 502. Just if i could go and take a look. My guys were looking at me like i was some maniac. I dictator kind of thing. Not their fault. In our 12 hr shift, we all had spent 11hrs changing the ropes of equipment and greasing it afterwards. A tough job u know. I was overexited. With machines, i always am.

We finally left off at about 2045 and i reached my quarters by 2115. Just had a wash. Had my dinner. Then i went back for my walk, it was then that i realized, i was limping. It did not mean that i was hurt, it just meant that i was exhausted. I shortened the walk to a 100 mtrs so that i can reach the mart and buy some snacks. The moment i paid the shopkeeper, i knew i am depressed.

Whole day, i was busy working, it is the high time for me, It is like i am in heaven with angels, loving every moment. But when you come back from heaven. It feels preety bad. I wanted to be there for as long as i could, but the day had ended.
And i was back home. Somethings did hurt:
As some instances i was slower then my fellows. They know how to sit while tightening the bolts( It matters, if you are working 70m sea level, sitting on a grill. I am still learning- “it takes sometime to learn”.

Several other things were flushing me ahead, death toll in The current Palestine conflict, a blast in the state of assam, man dying due to cold in northern states.

I was also missing the girl who used to work just a few blocks away at the hospital.
She is beautiful that i know, and actually she is the only girl of my age i get to see around here.(that too only once a day/week)

.It was a downturn for me yesterday, i went down the plank yesterday, preety bad, really bad. I could not manage a run today. It was the downtime. But its life, right!. But i remember the promise i made this christmas, A new santa, a new dream.

“Change the dream”- thats what the shamans say. That is what i know, that is the only truth i beleive.

Just for a note today, while i was returning back in bus, i found the girl back. She is back from a leave.

………..Apurva

Its just like gravity! I missed my bus again. I am here typing a post and will loose next bus again. I think-” I want to miss the bus”.

Went to watch a movie, i got late. Bought some other movie tickets. Went to the hall and realized ” I watched this movie last month”. God’s sake, The movie was not bad, but you know ”not like matrix” you can go and watch and it again-n-again. Ticket costed me about 70bucks that’s $2. During this time of recession, when i lost my phone too, its big money.

I still wonder, did where warren buffet got the first share to buy. I am trying to get that head, and man is that difficult. IT IS- take my word.

A good day went just out the window. Only good thing that happened- i deposited my bimonthly installments, and did deposit the electricity bill of my neighbour( which he had given to me 1 week back). Do you know what- i don’t feel to proud to act responsible. I don’t feel anything, i only feel my account drained by a couple of thousand bucks.

May what ever anybody say, but i liked the time i was waiting for christmas. I was thinking only about santa and was really charming with children. I loved it. Do you know! A child’s brain is most receptive. That’s why that say it is easy to deal with. My brain is also too much like that. I can receive anything and i mean anything.

On 1st of january, god gave me a beautiful night. I was there with my team, and hari decided to give me full freedom, my guys also gave me full freedom, that means i was alone doing the job. It was about 7-8 degree celsius, i think. And i got to do the maintainence of the spreader. and the mechanical pm of the gantry of the My cranes. plus he also let me do the TLS adjustment plus i also got to grease the spreader. Very bad that i found two damaged hydraulic oil filters. It hurts the equipments you know. Those of you who don’t understand the “ho ho ho” i used, it means, i was up whole night, jumping here and there with a bunch of spanners, rolling down on ground spreading grease with a paint brush.
AND it means when i got off the floor, i was painted black in colour. MY suit had a colouring in black. And i was smelling marvalous( It took me three baths to clean all that stuff from my face and hands). But it was cool! Imagine me in a nice black shirt, with a nice cream trousure( with some grease on it) walking in to the restaurant and trying to eat with black hands, the waiters and the guys near by me- were they amazed. They won’t understand.
The feeling of love is felt only by the one in love.
Anyways i had a nice sleep yesterday, then i decided to go for a fitness trial.
I WENT BACK JOGGING. Well it was dusk alright. But as will put it- it is the best pleasure in life( i don’t know about sex).

But it is one of the greatest pleasures that i will ever have. In the end of the run about 800 meters away from the residencial area. I did it, i went into the trance. I ran as i wanted to, fast as much as i could. As fast as was possible for me.
It is for these ten seconds that you live for, Those ten seconds, you and the world just don’t matter. You are the world, the life. You are all that exists. And when you finally stop. Its a life time that has passed. You have lived a complete life.

…………..Apurva

Hi,

Things started a long back, for me 23 years back, for others may be a different day.
I started this year with my good machines. I was in shift. I had the pleasure of sharing the night with all the equipments that were there. And i got to do the thing i justed wanted.

By the sheer coincidence, i got be there with the crawler lying there next to the wharf, with the 12 on the sight. The first one to be greated was the lovely, black coloured, fine, 6 tonn crawler. It was the first one to be wished.

And as a present, i got to see a beautiful crane which had operator cabin at not more then the height of the tyres. I mean when the operator will sit in there, his head will still be below the top most point of the tyre. For me friends, it was a lovely day. And it took me back to the house singing- wide loud.

I did get to see a lady next to my mess. She was preety. But i was like exhaused. So well had to go to sleep. Anyways nice way to start an year. Eh! I tell you its good.

Anyways, I am back to my feat. With the first of Jan, ther are going to be lot of changes. A lot of changes in my company, just like may be in lot many of you out there. Guys who will not be there 4 of them transfered to another site, about 1500 Kms away to an ICD. ( i heard they have got 20 or 30 equipments there), but its a land locked area. No sea. Also it is in an area i don’t like. People call be stupid, they say its a great area. I say, i love my sea. Most of the guys who have left were on the soft side, i mean, no competetion with ‘em. Can work with machines with them, just without any trouble. They wont be there, one of my managers will not be there, and an ass gead is going to take his place. It is little dangerous. But i plan to do only and only about me.

This month, my machines did handle 25 vessels. It was the best it has done since the plant was started. So three cheers for ‘em all.

I just say a great lady standing a few blocks away. I think i was stupid to follow my usual route and not to wish her.

Wishing you all a Great Year Ahead.

…………..Apurva